Holy toledo! This has been a week of severe emotional meltdown. If someone doesn't know about Mondays bombing, they're certainly not going to be reading this newsletter I'm writing. Then the blast in Texas, the ricin-laced letters to our politicians, letter-bomb sent to sherriff, and then to add to all of that, my mom was back in the hospital for a couple of days. We're not sure whats going on but apparently she was dizzy, had a pain in her chest that was on 1 side and then moved to the other side and she was talking gibberish again.
She's really going kinda nuts. She was extremely unhappy that people were walking down the hallway past her room. What?????? She almost had to be restrained in her bed 'cuz she insists on trying to get up all of the time and she's very, very wobbly. She's kinda mean to the staff. It's all so sad. I really think she's gonna need more than assisted living help soon. I'm so not looking forward to this but I don't want her going into a "home" if ya know what I mean. That'll mean she's either with me or my sister and we'll need to get her home care. Wish us luck, folks.
My sis is having a yard sale today & I took over some stuff to purge from my home & shed. She just texted me to ask me come over now. Yikes! I haven't even walked Putney yet. That just won't do will it. Here's my beautiful boy, sacked out on the throw pillows in the living room. He cracks me up. Hmmmmmmm, I wonder how he gained so much weight, (yuck-yuck-yuck!) His nasty hot-spot seems to be finally going down some. At the shot clinic another dog owner told me about a 50-50% apple cider vinegar & water mixture sprayed onto the spot so I've been doing it and it seems to be working. Thank goodness, 'cuz nothing else really seemed to. I tried the cone of shame, which in the 30 seconds he had it on he almost broke everything in the living room, sauve, hot spot juice(?), neosporin, bandages, nothing worked.
He'll just have to get his walk later I guess. Sis needs me. Lord knows, shes been there for me enough. And right now my family means everything to me. So off I go.
My sis sold quite a bit of stuff, I got rid of a few things but we didn't take back much. The Veterans truck is coming by her neighborhood on Mon. so we're just gonna let them have it all, mostly all, and be done with the stuff. so glad to be purged of stuff I haven't used for at least a year and in some cases, haven't seen in over 6 years. There is space in my shed now and in one of my office closets. Yippppeeee! Purged!
Went to a 10 year wedding anniversary of a couple of friends. It was lovely. I met one of their neighbors, quite the character. We ate, danced, got to chat with some more of my friends and didn't discuss work at all. Love that! I was bummed I had to leave fairly early into the night 'cuz I had to work the next morning. All in all a pretty busy weekend for me outside of my home. Unfortunately, I didn't get much done there. Oh well, spilled milk & all.
Well, lets discuss the fear and, most likely, the depression we're all feeling over the events of this past week. It's been an emotionally devastating time for all of us. Not knowing the why's of the actions taken allegedly by these 2 young men, the timeing of the letters to our President and other politicians, the disaster in Texas. Sorry, but I think I get the letter to the Sherriff. Don't get me wrong, I don't condone it but I get it.
It's alright to feel frightened. It's alright to get some help in coping with all of this. Finding a life coach or some other type of therapist doesn't make you a whack-job. We all need some help coping with this insane stuff happening around us. As if life isn't hard enough to cope with. Seeking professional help is a good thing people. Check with your HR dept. at your work. In some cases they have couselling availiable to employees. I know my workplace does. Use it, folks. You'll find it invaluable as you can learn some coping skills to deal with anger, fear, depression, etc. For me, if you see me tapping right, left, right, left fingers, I'm trying to find a calming sense for my brain. If I daze off I'm trying to find a "place" to calm myself. These are skills I learned at a life-coach session. It really helps to talk things out, to get them out and then, not fix the problems, but get ways to deal with them inside yourself.
We'll never really make sense out of these events, at least for myself, I hope to never make sense of it but we can move on. We won't forget but we can continue on with our lives & try to make things better. I still start tearing up from time to time watching the updates, etc. on tv. I want to help heal this broken world and the only way I know how is to continue to dance & teach & express myself through movement. We will laugh again. We will feel somewhat safe again.
By the way, I've finally gotten my current upper body workout on the "Workouts" page. Please feel free to tell me what you think.
Buck & Judy's Dang Rubs are getting closer to being available to buy. He's just finishing up on his website and getting cards made and it'll hit the ground runnin'. All of the FDA approvals & licensings have come through. So keep your britches on & be patient